STORIES OF LIFE
I feel unhappy, unseen, unloved.
And I don't know Why!
Fairy tales always end - and then they lived happily ever after.
Has anyone experienced this? I certainly haven't. Where do I always make mistakes?
I found the explanation in the principles of constellations - what usually brings a relationship together is pain. Yes, first it's love, a chemical reaction, an explosion of hormones and total attraction. Then comes insight and work on yourself and the relationship begins.
In the other person we see ourselves and our wounds and he sees the same in us.
A relationship means changing our pain together into love.
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My story about it - When, thanks to the constellation, you finally rest energetically in the arms of your father, whom you couldn't wait for your whole life, and you finally have what you were missing so much and you couldn't figure out what it is and what you are missing so much...
This experience of feeling a man and male energy has not been allowed to me before, it is a huge relief to allow yourself to experience it now...
Finally. Finally, I can be with my dad, he sees me, perceives me, is there for me and his energy flows to me and the best thing is 🌟 that I can receive it, I know how to receive it!
WOW.
It flows naturally and is naturally received by me, I don't have to do anything, try for anything, ask for anything 🙏. It is a process that happens and I just am and accept the energy that belongs to me, which nourishes me and allows me to be a woman who already has security and a flow of energy from my dad and is nourished by it.
I don't need anything from my husband anymore, I don't need anything from my son anymore, I don't need anything from any man anymore.... The energy that I've been looking for for so long and needed all my life is already here, it's already flowing, I'm already bathing in it and it's flowing constantly. 😊
But it didn't happen by itself, it was preceded by the realization of how I actually feel about my husband, that it's not an idyll, as it can sometimes seem.
That sometimes, when I go deeper and allow myself to feel more of what's going on inside me - I realize that I don't feel him, that nothing flows, that I'm not able to accept anything. It's as if he's not even there and yet he is.
That it's a bit of a mystery in my life. I had a period when I was afraid of strange men, when they approached me, I would run away internally and play the heroine externally.
I often felt unhappy, unseen, unloved in my relationship. I tried to do the possible and the impossible for my husband and still nothing changed. I still felt the same and terrible and so I had no choice but to realize, as always, that what was echoing and hurting was inside me and was my wounded part that was crying out for healing.
Through my relationships with my husband and son, I had felt this pain a lot lately, my wound was echoing and hurting and calling me to heal.
I felt that my husband was not there for me and did not see me as I felt and am.
I did not see myself that way and did not understand that I could not allow myself to be who I felt inside if the energy from my father did not flow to me.
First, through visualization, I saw an image of the inner setting that I am experiencing so painfully - I am desperately trying to break the thick plexiglass behind which I can see my father and I cannot reach him... After endless attempts to break it, I collapse to the ground, desperate and exhausted, and I see no solution and I am completely at the bottom.
The next step was visualization to heal this inner setting. And then consciously receiving energy from the man.
This topic required more time and more work on myself. I was not able to connect with my father's energy only in visualization without a constellation and accept a new image and a new setting into my reality. I needed to fully feel and experience that image and setting in a constellation and realize that it is even possible. I can be with my father and draw on the energy that he sends me... 😊Relax and allow myself to do so.
The last step was the constellation, where I put the theme of the plexiglass and my desperate and helpless self, longing for my father's embrace and reunion, as the theme in the constellation. The constellation gave me an image of a new setting that I was not even able to imagine in visualizations. The theme was very deep and essential for me.
My mother had a bad experience with men and wanted to protect me from the same pain, so she preferred not to let me energetically approach my father at all. This prevented me from receiving his energy and I lived my whole life without this energy and searched for it in vain...
My inner image and setting was that he was inaccessible and behind glass and I was desperate that I could not reach him.
My life has changed, my perspective on life has changed, there is no longer any pressure, striving, searching, constant thought processes, how to achieve that feeling of fulfillment and what I am actually looking for...
What am I actually missing, how to name it? How to break down that glass curtain
between me and him and get to him... 🤔
It's a powerful liberating feeling to know that I don't have to do anything for love,
to know that I have it and it flows to me and is within me.
And how will this help me in my relationships with my son and husband?
I think I'll stop trying and doing things to please them and make them like me.
I already know that it's not necessary... I'll feel their love and energy and attention naturally.
And I don't have to do anything for it, just be and receive.
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